Today I witness how a lady fall in love, and how a woman fall apart.
Muli kong napatunayan na kapag damdamin ang pinanghawakan ng isang tao, walang kapantay na sakit ang kaya nitong idulot sa isang pusong nagmamahal.
That’s what you get for investing too much on your feelings and clinging too much on your emotions. Ganun yata talaga when everything matters to you is your feelings and your ideals.
Why I say so? I say so because for every tear that fell from her eyes, it was like as if time was taking me back two years ago.
Though I’m not saying it was a same experience. No. I just saw myself being too emotionally attached. Yung pakiramdam na parang ang perfect na ng lahat pero at some point the weakest link just gave up.
Sa lahat ng narinig ko ngayon, hinding hindi ko maihahambing ang lahat sa mga naranasan ko. Iba ang sitwasyon. Iba ang perspective. Iba ang audience. Iba ang mga taong apektado. Dahil may mga bagay na hinding hindi na mababalikan. Kahit anong pilit pa ang gawin natin.
Kahit papaano, ramdam ko yung mga nangyayari. There are too much overflowing emotions behind the two cups of coffee we’re drinking. Wala akong ibang magawa. The only comfort I can give is to listen. Just to listen. Hindi ko alam if it was helping her. Hindi ko alam kung ano bang dapat kong sabihin. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako magbibigay ng advise that would uplift her spirit. I really don’t know what to do when a lady start crying in front of you and start bursting out her problem. I don’t know how to hold her crumbling pieces together. I was just silent, my ears were all open and all that I was able to say was “Only time can tell”.
I always believed that time can give her answers to every why’s and but’s she threw at me. I know time will do its job. Like what it did to me. I know this is just a test for her. A phase of some sort. Like a phase caterpillar undergo through before becoming a beautiful butterfly. A transition from being a fragile lady to a fighting woman.
Siguro as of now, every doors that can give her answers are still locked. Waiting for her to find all the keys to open them. I can feel it. Yun yung challenge. Kung paano nya hahanapin yung mga susi na yon to free her in her agony.
In due time. Everything will be alright. Then we will just joke about it when everything subside.